Just like starting over.....

again, and again, and again.....

Merry Meet
I just got out of a week of inaptient psychiatric treatment.  I suffer from bi-polar disorder, post traumatic stress disorder (ptsd), Dissassociative Identity Disorder (DID/Multiple Personality Disorder) and several other diagnoses.

Some things in my life I had to come to terms with were stressing me out.

 I am an addict who relapses constantly and I need to work a harder program.  I am a habitual liar andhave to work on my honesty as well as my willingness before I ca truly begin my recovery.  I am not going to keep picking up white keytags every meeting, and don't plan to keep any other color (except maybe 1 yr and beyond).  The white reminds me that, no matter what my clean date is, all any of us really have as far as clean time is today. 

I am better off living in Missouri.  I went to take care of my Mom, planning to stay in Michigan.  I can't ever move away from here in Cassville.  This is my "Shamanic place"... th place where my abilities are strongest.  I am a bad Solitary Wiccan, but I am also looking into Taoism, Buddism, and Shamanism.  I'm hoping someday to be a Spiritual Advisor, Natural Health Coounselor, Psychic, and Life Coach. 

I had to accept that I would be better off going to school actually at the school, at least to get my Associates.  I am looking into starting at Crowder College here in Cassville for this fall semester.

I have to be more assertive with hat I want to accomplish.  I want to get my driver's license and get a 4-wheel drive that can tow a trailer before I take any trips back to Michigan or any other place.  I tend to pick up thngs wherever I go, and pick up things from my family that I left behind, and want to bring the camping and fishing equipment with us along with the other necessities.  The PT Cruiser that Bob has doesn't have a hitch and there's no way that all the stuff I want to bring along fit in it!

I guess there isn't much more for this entry. 
I hope that this journey of mine is able to help someone else as we take it together. 

Peace, much love, and Blessed Be.