doctor's advice worth taking?

An attitude is contagious.

Is yours worth catching?

I went to my doctor this morning because I was in so much pain that it woke me at 5 a.m.  I saw him at 8:30 a.m. (I have a wonderful walk-in clinic that opens at 8 a.m.) and he said that "a lot of your problems would improve greatly if you started walking 20 minutes a day". 
I explained to him that I am "terminally lazy and motivationally challenged".  He said that at least I knew what my true problems were, unlike most of his patients, and sent me on my way.

I do plan on trying to do this.  I think if I even give it a half-hearted try that I might see improvement.  He offered to write me a prescription for it so that I would treat it like I do taking my medication.  If I don't do it every day on a regular basis that it isn't going to give me as much benefit.  I wanted to tell him that I take pain medication on a regular basis (prescribed, no less) and that it doesn't really give me a lot of benefit.....

I do admit that, among all the other folders I have started for various other projects, I did start an exercise folder.  One of the things I really think would get me to do this on a regular basis is to get a treadmill.  I always use the excuse that "walking is great for the warmer months, but what about Winter?".....  Unlike most people, I do not feel my treadmill would become a clothes rack or something other less glamorous.....  A treadmill is like most things in my life though, "how does it feel to want?".

Still, we will see how this goes.  I asked my Higher Powers to give me a place to start with this exercise thing.  Sometimes you have to be careful what you ask for.

Blessed Be,
Kim

trying again

Been hanging out on Netlog since I downloaded IE9.  Created a new message that I have saved in Microsoft Office Word 2007:

I filled out my Profile. Check that and see if you are still interested.

 I am a Solitary Wiccan who is psychic, empathic and speak to ghosts on a regular basis. I have DID (split personality disorder) as well as several other diagnoses.

I don’t do I.M.s.  Most who want to do that just want a free 900 #.  Sorry, look elsewhere if this is a problem.   I am willing to try it again, sort of.    .kimberly.babcock@ymail.com

If still interested, write back. .

I'm hoping that it will keep most of the weirdos away that just want to talk sexual.

I can't stay away from IMs, so I downloaded and added Yahoo Messenger again, under a different name, kimberly.babcock@ymail.com . I am hoping that I can block those who just want a free 900#.

Not much else going on.

Proud of myself

This morning, I went to www.writing.com/authors/kristiana first and reviewed 3 items, which I normally can't get myself to do, and then I came here.... and it is only 7:16 a.m. here in sunny Cassville.

Yesterday, I felt kind of sick, but I still dusted the house (with the broom also to get all the cobwebs out of the corners of the ceilings that have been there for-ev-er), cleaned both bathrooms, and got Bob to finish a project he was working on for me on the kitchen table and clean his junk off it!!! 

I also made a cover for a portable sketchbook that I will carry with me (including a great sketch in color for the cover) went through the five library books that I took out on Friday, went shopping and visited the relatives next door (who are treating me a heck of a lot better, thank you)....  Not to mention I have been constantly straightening things as I come across them and getting ready for a yard sale next Friday....

Not too shabby, egh????

Blessed Be, much love, and peace....
(full moon on wednesday)

Thunder storms

There is supposed to be scattered t storms today.  We cannot have the modem plugged in when there is lightning because it tends to surge and fry it.  Thus, I won't get much done on the computer today. Oh well.  I also feel a little nauseous because I haven't eaten yet, and the ionization of the air will increase paranormal activity (not to mention makes me achy).

I have been organizing a lot of things.  This has encouraged me to work on things that I haven't in a long time.  I have been sketching and painting, so those skills are improving.  I have also been working on crafts, especially getting done the cross-stitich baby bibs that I started while I was in Michigan.  I am also working on stories that I haven't touched in months and writing new things, as well as doing research. 

I got honest about my addictions.  While I am the type that can leave a half of a beer and be okay with it, and I don't touch any illegal substances or abuse my prescribed meds, I can identify with the emotions and depression/pessimism of addicts and I do have addictive behaviors.  I am also a habitual liar, terminally lazy, and have low self esteem, which is also things that some addicts deal with.  Thus I can relate and therefor help other addicts.  My name is Kim and I am an addict.  An addict, is an addict, is an addict.  It doesn't matter what or how much you used.

I have also noted that December 21st (supposedly the day all the calendars end in 2012) is the first day of the Wiccan Year.  Also, it is the Winter Solstice, which is the day believed of the most divine births.  Finally, a woman's period is 28 1/4 days long, which is also the amount of time between full moons.  I find this all very fascinating and would welcome other's views and comments.

Things are going well, other than finances, which is plaguing everyone these days. 

May all Blessed Be.   Kim

back again

I hate coming up with titles....

I blocked network blogs on FB now I don't even see if mine posts.  If someone knows how to help me with this, please email me, kimbab68@gmail.com.  ty.  My FB profile addy is kimberlybab@live.com.

Anywho,
I had to put my tower in the shop for 3 days, so I had to use Bob's comp when I could.  That's why I haven't been writing this.  I was going to start a new blog on http://www.writing.com/, but i can't afford to upgrade my memebership at this time.  I spent waaayyyy too much this month, spending over $200 in cash and maxing out my PayPal account.  I have to have Bob make my payment to PayPal this month, and I wasn't able to give him anything.  Oh well, hindsight is 20/20......  I have to start acting the way I did when Bob had control of my money.... like I don't have 2 pennies to rub together....

Things are slow now.  I've put getting my license on a back burner.  I'm just going to work on it in empty parking lots for now.  When I get comfortable with that, then I'll see about taking the test for my permit.  First I have to get used to how much pressure to apply to the gas and brake and making efficient turns.

I'm instead focusing on possibly starting a business from home and getting myself together mentally, physically and spiritually.  Basically I have put myself back at the square one where I was when I first came to Missouri in 2009.....  I am also going to try to get into Crowder Community Colllege to just get an Associates in General Studies.  No online schooling until then.  I'm also putting more attention toward my crafts and writing.  I'm even teaching myself various painting techniques.

That's about it in a nutshell.

Peace, love and Blessed Be.

Kristiana

Just like starting over.....

again, and again, and again.....

Merry Meet
I just got out of a week of inaptient psychiatric treatment.  I suffer from bi-polar disorder, post traumatic stress disorder (ptsd), Dissassociative Identity Disorder (DID/Multiple Personality Disorder) and several other diagnoses.

Some things in my life I had to come to terms with were stressing me out.

 I am an addict who relapses constantly and I need to work a harder program.  I am a habitual liar andhave to work on my honesty as well as my willingness before I ca truly begin my recovery.  I am not going to keep picking up white keytags every meeting, and don't plan to keep any other color (except maybe 1 yr and beyond).  The white reminds me that, no matter what my clean date is, all any of us really have as far as clean time is today. 

I am better off living in Missouri.  I went to take care of my Mom, planning to stay in Michigan.  I can't ever move away from here in Cassville.  This is my "Shamanic place"... th place where my abilities are strongest.  I am a bad Solitary Wiccan, but I am also looking into Taoism, Buddism, and Shamanism.  I'm hoping someday to be a Spiritual Advisor, Natural Health Coounselor, Psychic, and Life Coach. 

I had to accept that I would be better off going to school actually at the school, at least to get my Associates.  I am looking into starting at Crowder College here in Cassville for this fall semester.

I have to be more assertive with hat I want to accomplish.  I want to get my driver's license and get a 4-wheel drive that can tow a trailer before I take any trips back to Michigan or any other place.  I tend to pick up thngs wherever I go, and pick up things from my family that I left behind, and want to bring the camping and fishing equipment with us along with the other necessities.  The PT Cruiser that Bob has doesn't have a hitch and there's no way that all the stuff I want to bring along fit in it!

I guess there isn't much more for this entry. 
I hope that this journey of mine is able to help someone else as we take it together. 

Peace, much love, and Blessed Be.

devistation besides the disaster

I cannot access the net during storms as it puts my modem at risk.  I apologize to anyone who worried about me because of this

Where the tornadoes hit in Joplin is just North of us.  We are fine, but we keep our neighbors there in our thoughts and prayers. 

I told my bf that this organization already exists, but I don't think it does.  However, I think it would be an excellent idea.  It is called "Idiot Helpers".  What they would do is go to where there has been a disaster and help the idiots who went there unprepared thinking they were going to help.  Rather than the government emergency services who are there providing these people with the things they need to survive, such as blankets and tents, ect. that were meant for the people who were left without by the disaster, they would.  While they have them in there "grasp" they would educate them on how they could have helped more by staying away and just donating to the charities who are there and qualified to help.

There was a woman on the radio yesterday who said that her husband had been called there as an EMT driver.  These drivers were having a difficult time transporting the disaster victims to where they needed to be for medical treatment because people had come to Joplin from all over either intending to help or searching for their loved ones.  It was pure chaos.  The people who didn't need to be there where blocking the routes they needed to use with their cars because there was no place else to park.

There is a website now by the Red Cross.... I forgot the name but you can check it for the names of people who have checked in with them as safe and sound.  I believe it would also list those who have been transported out for medical treatment or whatever and where they are, but you would have to check the website to be sure.  If not, it would be another excellent idea if they would.

The best thing anyone can do who doesn't live in the area affected is stay away.  I know it would be difficult if you have loved ones in the area, but you will be contacted eventually.  Just know that they are being taken care of by the professionals and are probably just as anxious to let you know they are okay.  The only other things anyone should be doing is donating to the local area charities and agencies who have sent people down there already.  Contact them through thir websites or find phone numbers and find out how you can best help.  And, as always, pray for the victims and keep them in your thoughts. 

Also, find your local neighbors who do have loved ones there if you do not, and you can easily bring them comfort just by giving them someone to lean on during their stress.  You could help them in such ways as help keeping track of their children and making sure they are taking care of themselves.  It would not help their loved ones who finally contact them if they find out that their loved one here is in the hospital over the worry they have caused.  Make sure they eat and you may even be able to answer the phone for them if they are afraid of what news is coming in on the line.  Just being there to support our neighbors who are here through the devistation there helps the people there too; more than you know.  Besides, this Missouri.  Isn't that what we do is help our neighbors in need?

Put others needs before your own, even if it is just in small ways, as often as you can.  You will be suprised how good it makes all of you feel.  It may even help make this a better world for all.

being stupid

I have been spending all my time on Facebook playing games.  I just don't really feel like working on anything else on the computer too much.  I've been doing what I absolutely should on WdC, but I also could do some reviewing.  I have several things in my favorites list that I told myself I was going to review.  Oh well.

I also got myself back into NA.  I am by no means the poster child for NA; no one is.  Don't judge the program by me.  I just feel an obligation to my homegroup and my family I have there.  My homegroup is in a desperate situation and I can at least go to the meetings and give some contribution.  I whs the bank was open today.  I would replace my books (they got burned), at least my daily meditation book.  Maybe I can get Bob to get me one or write a check.  They need me though, and I am a sucker when someone needs me, depending on who it is (you see I didn't stay with my Mom though she needed me).

I have also been sort of working on crafts.  I work on my crocheting (currently a blue baby blanket) while I watch TV sometimes.

I have been working on my spirituality.  I have been researching Wiccan sites online and have gotten several new things for rites, including a garment to do them in, a drum, and several things for my altar.  I also planted herbs (which someone reminded me this month is Beltane which is the Wiccan time to plant.  Hey, I was going to look up what was this month because I didn't know, yet I did what was suggested.  Pretty good, Egh?).

I guess this isn't so stupid after all.


I want to thank all who have started to follow my blog here.  Please, comment.  You are never going to offend me by any means and I value your input.

Earning money online warning

Just resigned up for several survey sites.  Be careful which you sign up for.  A lot of their surveys require credit card information and some of them sell their client lists to other companies.

If you find one that is unscrupulous, please look up The Better Business Bureau or some other reporting agency online and please report them.  We should all work together to keep our fellow surfers and ourselves from being scammed and spammed.

Thanks